A friend sent me this article from MindBodyGreen on 5 Life-Changing Ways to Start Your Day. Not sure why, but I read it anyway. I think the message to move away from plugging in too electronics too fast in the morning is a good one. Ditto meditating, getting fresh air, seeing the great outdoors — even if off the balcony in the city!
However, I take issue with their commentary about journaling, #3 on their list: “If you find that journaling makes you feel more flooded with negative feelings, you’re not journaling effectively.”
As an avid journaler, I think that this is a naive statement. IF you are going through a dark time, it may make you feel temporarily worse to write it all down, a bit like the after effects of throwing up, as the words are unhinged. But sometimes throwing up clears the stomach of toxins! Keep journaling truth, even if negative, and after a few days the brain-cloud will clear. In fact, sometimes the BEST thing you can do to change your mental disposition is to write everything that is troubling you down, go for broke, scribble away until your brain is completely tired of that subject. Then either something will shift — Mind has had its say, knows you are paying attention — you DID write it down, after all — OR, you will write yourself into understanding why such-and-such is troubling you.
During my surgery I thought to do a healing journal, and wanted it to be full of positive thought toward a healthier me (samples, above). But when the surgeon tore my ureter and I was to be on my back many more weeks, and the fear resulting in having a torn ureter — and the lousy bedside manner of the stupid surgeon — I was frozen in my positive journal. Finally I began writing my fears and everything that went along with that (samples below) — and my energy shifted and I felt more awake and less depressed. Truth-telling always takes you there.
I’ve been through a lot in the last few months, and much of it has been depleting and frightening and depressing. I’m coming out the other side of it apparently unscathed. This is lucky. Upon reentering normal life as we know it, I have done a few things differently.
I kiss my husband more.
I dress nicer during the day, and am making sure I feel feminine. My work is such that often I am in old painting clothes!
I completely stop and turn away from the computer when Mitchell is talking to me. Usually I am in such a push I have gotten into the habit of saying “uh-huh” and not hearing. AWFUL!
When negative thoughts arise that are all monkey-mind (meaning there is not a damn thing I can do about it so it is just going to drive me insane) I stop them. I turn on music, remind myself all is well, and that I am well-cared for by the greater powers that be!
If I wake too early and can’t fall back asleep, I either draw next to sleeping Mitchell or gt up to start a creative part of my day. I now have a big glass of water, grounding my feet on the floor, and giving thanks for Mitchell. I kiss cats as they come to see who is awake. Electronics are way down on my list. I will sleep an hour less and paint an hour more.
I’ve started a Gratitude Journal just to notice the joyful pleasurable things in my life. The gratitude journal is not always about happy-happy — in my last post I was giving thanks for small things during a bad week, and the week before I discussed my hair falling out! However, looking at a week and asking what I am grateful for is a great reminder, as I am blessed with good fortune. Even in the midst of the annoyances or serious problems, I also have amazing prosperity and joyful times.
All the art is from my other blog, dkatiepowellart!
I am letting go of the news cycle. There is no good news. I’ve been hyper vigilant about environmental and health stories and am letting go — our democracy and politics is nothing if not depressing. The world will have to carry causes forward without me.
I am adamant about listening to guidance. Had I done that during the surgery and not been “practical” perhaps my torn ureter would not have ensued. My guidance was screaming at me that the doctor was a turkey. So when Mitchell has a strong avoidance response to a medical suggestion, we listened.
I am back to yoga, back to the push to lose a bit more weight so that I feel better and have more energy. I want to be like the woman above at 93 (tho not that skinny — as if that were possible!)
How’s by you? What do you do to engage your day by being present?
Have a great weekend!
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